of churches and graveyards

i have an intermittent dream..
coming from i dont know where,
i just know that everytime i dream of it
it feels so real...

-one-
when i close my eyes..id start to fly.. to run..to walk..
then illbe in soft-lighted place, with marble flooring and white columns.. a fountain with flower and water flowing..and an insence that calmly soothes one mind and body.. then ill realize im in a church.. id ask around.."am i in heaven?" "no this is a church!" ow! ..hehe so white.. so serene..ans smells good too..
i remember touching the water..i remember seeing those lights.. then all of a sudden-- graveyard! dark, cold, eerie place.. i wonder why have i seen that? then ill walk..ill find my way out.. then ill wake up!

-two-
i was walking to this long, narrow, and wood-parquet flooring.. different pictures hanging on the walls.. then at the end..an altar.. i know it is a church.. i could see the tabernacle, the crucifix, all made of wood.. sun rays would come inside lighting the seats of the church, creating a homely and holy ambiance. but on the deck, seeing below from the second floor.. a graveyard (again)! there was a big statue of a saint (i dont know who really she is, until i researched on her.. and gave me chills when i found out that the saint really exist!), the yard has dozens of white cross.. green grass beneath and the big (as in huge) statue looking over them. this dream was the longest one and the most vivid and perplexing to me.

-three-
i was flying and landed on a church.. but unlike the others this church is so dark.. not cozy.. more of an old-spanish style church that even church goers have their 'belo' (ano b english neto??)on top of their heads.. it was communion time, and i was asked to fall in line and take one.. just when im really having one, i pray before i reached the altar..ask for forgiveness etc.. then when it was about my turn, someone called..then i woke up!

-four-
i was in this big, vast church.. looking around. i could see the priest, the church is so dark..with few ornaments and in colored violet.. strange though because instead of walking.. i was flying! i was talking to the priest, and he was about to give me a little book (maybe its a bible) when i opened my eyes..

-five-
this dream only last for about 10 minutes.. i was kneeling infront of an altar of a round,red colored, little church when a man at the back gave me the challice and ask me to drink.. uhmmm... its weird..its blood and i could really taste it.. erggghhhhh!!!! what is that!

-six-
(this is my first dream of church)the difference about this dream, is i know the church that ive gone through (in this dream i mean). it was the time when angels go down from heaven and started preaching to people, because people dont want to listen to priests or patsors anymore.. a minute of earthquake will signal the people that we should be on church and listen to angels..hmmmm.. this is so weird!

i wish someday i could see these churches.. if there are real..hehe

..you see i try to remember all of them..not because i want to write it down..but because i am hoping that one day id be able to understand it.. may it be nothing or about everything in my life...

--maroon 8