confused..

i woke up this morning crying..

my dream includes death and a dog.

i was so happy, that i finally had a big dog (i dont know its breed but i knew its the one that ive always wanted -- big, brown and long haired dog..hehe)im so excited that i'd always have him with me everywhere i go!

stop --

then comes a place..a big and white place..

i was there eating rice grains! (?) [weird!!] then a sad news came to me -- a family member died! :( is was so devastating..but i continue to it, try to tell myself..that its ok, ill get through with this. the funny thing is.not a single tear rolled in my eyes.. then all of a sudden it went back.. the news would go over and over and over in my head.. then i cried.. i burst with tears, then i woke up..still crying..

i dont know what that means.. but whatever it is, i hope it wont happen..not now.. i still have a lot of things to give to them.. i still have a lot of deeds that i should do for them..

i wish it will not come true :(

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im so bothered that i tried looking it up in the internet for dream meanings.. and found one common factor on each symbols -- change!

"there will be a major change in your life that would create a big impact!"

whatever it is..i hope its good!